may 19th, 2024

5:13am - i love- vague blogging about a post only six people (not including me) have seen lol- i mean, at least it's better than letting my thoughts out in an even more public space (although tbh who's even reading this, huh?)

apparently sean (jacksepticeye) and gab (gabsmolders) unfollowed mark (markiplier) on all platforms, and i only know this cuz someone posted a "why is no one talking about this??" post about it

buddy, it's cuz why would anyone know about that unless they were specifically looking for it-?? and also... genuinely, who cares? all three of them are adults with their own private lives that do not - and should not - involve us. whatever may or may not be going on between them is between them. if either sean or gab decide to go public about this, then that's that. but god, please don't let a speculation campaign begind because of this. i've been on the internet long enough to know such a thing would get out of hand so fast

thankfully, as i mentioned, only six other people have seen the post, and only one person reblogged, so that's really good... if the reblogger wasn't a fanartist in both the jacksepticeye and markiplier communities. which is how i even found out about said post, because i follow them. which means plenty of other people will see it now as well

please tell me it won't lead to a whole speculation campaign please let these communities also get that they're adults and don't have to share every personal detail about their lives. please

may 18th, 2024

maaaaaan, why's the hermitcraft s9 world have to be so big?

it's available on the bedrock marketplace, which i have since i use the nintendo switch. but i guess it's just- simply too big, because even after archiving almost all of my games (minus mario party because i have to play it with my brother tonight (/negative)), it's just getting stuck at the very end of the first step. the bar fills up completely and... that's it

why add it to the switch's marketplace at the very least if it doesn't even work on the switch?

1:23pm - i think if my brother asks me one more time to fix his switch's internet connection or to look up how to i'm gonna scream

i don't know why it was assumed that i know anything about how the switch works outside of the surface level stuff anyone who uses the system for a while could figure out. i'm not tech savvy in the slightest, and i don't know what keywords i'd need to just look it up, but he keeps bugging me about it and it's just aggrivating

side note: i'm gonna start adding time stamps to all these entries, just for a little something extra. obviously can't add the times to all the other entries cuz i can barely register time unless i'm directly looking at a clock, but it'll be implimented from here on

may 17th, 2024

i find it wacky when i go to someone's stamp page and see a "you can feel safe around me" stamp, or anything along those lines. and then not far after i see stamps that note the exact opposite. like- i don't know- but i think having stamps that discriminate against a group of people makes you not safe to be around (not just for that group, but any supporters. like i'll make it known (as an example), anyone saying that mspec lesbians are invalid - or really just any kinda exclusionist, that's just the most popular - is not someone i feel safe around

anyways anyone who comes around to seeing this this is an every sexuality/gender/general identity inclusive space. i do not give a fuck how you identify, so long as you're living your best life and no one's getting hurt (including yourself) i'll respect you :3

and please kindly get the fuck off my page if you're exclusive i don't want you here. here, i'll scare you off: oooooooo, people living their lifes and loving themselves in ways that don't affect you, ooooooooo

but yeah it's just wild to me, and upsetting cuz they usually have other stamps that i'm like "ooooo, i want!" but then i scroll down a little and i see something i so seriously disagree with that i just shrivel up and back the hell out. oh well, i'll probably find the stamps elsewhere

i'm gonna scream-

a week, week and a half ago, we'd ordered domino's, and i got a lava cake as a desert. box had three of them, but i figured that the other two were just for my parents

come earlier today and i ask if the rest of the lava cakes are gonna get eaten. my dad then goes "i thought those were for you"

turns out domino's, when you order a lava cake, sends you three in one box. i hadn't known this, and no one ever went and asked if i'm gonna eat my other lava cakes, thus letting me know all three were for me

they weren't good anymore, so they had to be thrown away. so that's two lava cakes completely wasted, and all this time i must've just looked like a waster of deserts. dad even had me throw pizza boxes away a couple days ago and didn't go "oh, btw, are you gonna eat these lava cakes?"

would've had something good for lunch for... many different days i didn't have lunch and had to resort to cereal

on a lighter note, ya like the new cute divider i found from pixel safari? :3

went to see IF with my friend and his mom and goooooooooooooooood it was so good. i nearly cried three times during it, but somehow managed to only cry once. i should've tried to find a way to sneak my stuffed rabbit peanut butter in, cuz it would've been very cozy to watch the movie while cuddling him.

unfortunately i got reminded about the crow remake and how much i fucking despise remake culture in hollywood, cuz there was a poster for it in the movie theatre. i'm gonna smack whoever thought it was a good idea to remake that movie, not everything needs a fucking remake! like can we just leave movies to be as they were?? the original crow is so fucking good, why does it need a remake besides tapping in to millenials' nostalgia and sapping money from them? the nostalgia bait worked on my parents apparently cuz they're excited to see it, but after seeing the trailer i don't wanna touch that thing with a ten foot pole

may 12th, 2024

i really wish i could go back to middle school, when i actually liked what i drew

according to and old friend of mine, i apparently was really proud of my art back then. and i do remember hanging it all on the wall against my bed

i want that feeling back so bad. now whenever i look at my art, i just see everything wrong with it. the bad anatomy and proportions look so awful, and i just hate the style in general

i wanna be proud of what i make again. i wanna be able to look at my art in all it's flaws and smile, and think "i made that". now whenever i think about drawing i'm just reminded of how awful it will look

"do it bad" they say. "no one can do it like you". well that's the problem, isn't it? i don't want it to be me doing it. because me doing it won't do it right

how do other people "do it bad"? why can't i have that mentality as well?

why can't i be happy with myself again?

may 8th, 2024

i- i forgot that tumblr has a post limit-

i just wanna post all the stamps i find to my private account so i can link to them from there why is there a post limit-???

and why's it only 250 while likes has 1,000 until the limit-???

there better not be any art posted while i'm being limited or i'll... i dunno cry cuz i can't reblog the cool art-

if anyone's got any better places to post stamps please leave a comment on my guest book. obviously don't suggest discord since image links now break after 24hrs so that's not an option anymore, otherwise that's 100% where i would've been putting the stamps (fuck you discord-)

trying to copy my main creative minecraft world has really made me realize how big it is (if the 182MB wasn't enough). like it did eventually copy but it got stuck on 40% for just a little too long-

april 28th, 2024

after looking at the webrings people are apart of i learned that there's aparently an asexual webring. once i learn what a "slug" is i'm signing up for that. but aside from that, i wondered if there was an aromantic webring. being a loveless aro is an enormous part of my identity, i wanna show my pride by joining a cool virtual club! but it doesn't seem like there is one, which is... wacky. i'm sure i just didn't look hard enough (and if so, please leave a comment in my guestbook letting me know), but the ace webring was the first result when looking up "asexual webring" so why wouldn't it be the same for an aro one?

anyways, all that to say, someone should make an aro webring if there isn't one already- heck, i'll figure out the onionring stuff and make one myself, cuz aro pride is pretty neat >:3

oh, also, 666 views on my site, praise satan and all that

april 24th, 2024

guess who broke the website again trying to add webrings to the intro box :'3

unfortunately some of the webring widgets i need to have are too big for the side boxes, so to the intro box they go lol

april 22nd, 2024

god are html code's fragile- i tried putting a header in the art log section, and that broke everything, even after i reversed it. like i'm pretty sure that's all i did to cause it to mess up. i had to completely restart with the template i'm using, thankfully i had the brain to put all the stuff i changed into a .txt file so i could copy paste it all back in. but i am now thoroughly exhausted,,,

april 17th, 2024

okay, so, lesson learned. just don't copy and paste an entire site's html into another cuz that just- breaks everything- at the very least i managed to figure out that reloading the frame fixed everything but... fucking hell was that a headache. and it's only 6:30am :P

going absolutely bonkers trying to find a cool comment widget like i've seen other people have on their websites. why is it so complicated??? i'm taking a good break from messing around here lol